A world was born from 2 minutes….

...a whole 2 minutes. I heard a ringing and felt something settling in my head - an epiphany exploded, exclaiming that I am not who I am.

If I am not myself, then how can I connect and be the artist that I need to be? Who really am I?

My earlier life has mostly not been of rainbows. In a time and place where I should have had a happy childhood, I had pain. Slowly, being broken, bit by bit, stripped and rained on, in an endless storm. I found a rock and held on, and with my little hand, I gripped and tore to get onto this rock, my own ‘rock of Gibraltar'. One day, I woke up. The storm had ended and I was as hard as my rock....but, I survived. In the coming years, I became harder and harder....but, I survived.

It all changed. Epiphanies does that, you know.

As I am writing this, I begin to understand it all now. I became hard to protect myself, to weather the storm. Perhaps parts of me were hidden for a reason, so certain parts could evolve. I don't know. But somehow, I became lost and I forgot.

And now...well, like a cheese-cake (emphasis on the cheese), I guess I'm ready, and the epiphany came heralding a change, a beginning, a new world.

My true self? I have learn that I am strong, that I can withstand plenty of challenging situations. I accept that I am really not a jaded person, that I still do believe in the goodness of the world. And while I'm baring my soul, I might as well come clean and confess that I am a goofy nerd that loves to read about discoveries in technology and science, sneaks in documentaries on CBC, who cries at sappy commercials and movies. For gracious sakes, have you seem 'Terms of Endearment'? I've seen it 6 times and cried all 6 times! Forget that...I cried watching FINDING NEMO. Yup...a total softie!

But you know what's more important? I learn that I can be solid like a rock but I don't need to be hard - the trick is finding the balance. And yes DAMMIT! Love is the answer! No matter what we have gone through, we ultimately came from Love.....even if it lasted for 2 minutes.

You know, a world was born from just 2 measly minutes. Ask your mum...

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